i din expect today to turn out lik tis..im sorry.
i've got my reasons for not wanting to turn up.u all see tat?? i'm simply a spoiler for the day.. i dun wan it to be lik tat.i wan to be happy whenever i mit u guys.i dun wan my mood to affect u all.but i couldnt control my emotions.........my eyes again filled with tears.

mayb wad all of urs intention was to cheer me up by holding tis kinda gathering.make me forget everything, throw away all unhappy thoughts.and wad i did was to disappoint u all by rejecting the offer. i really appreciate wad u all did for me.u besties are still mine very best besties.. i've know ive got so many frens ard whu really care for me.i shud feel contented n happy.And i noe i haf to!

sooo..mayb wad i nid is more n more time...hw much time i wuldnt noe. but i'll still try my best to carry a smile wherever i go.

And, anyway...kidd, thx for your help again..!!u really helped me a lot in pulling me through all tis shit...pass me ur hp bill if u wan. =p